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all of us have different moral values, different attitudes towards the world, different ways we treat our friends or acquaintances. we each play a different game in a different field.
definitely, we will treat those we like with care, love and genuine sincerity.
those who're out of our good books, often were treated with disdain, dislike or unlterior motives.

that's the harsh reality of this world.
eat or be eaten. play it or get played.
it's only in our inner most world, encrysted with fragile love that's treated with genuine love.
otherwise, we do wear a false mask to hide our intentions and emotions.

there's never a right or wrong in thise sense.
we each have our own moral values and principles. our own ambitions and drives.
severity and importance we place on each value is never the same.
the extent of the repercussions differ from individuals to individuals too.
some of us are realists, some of us are idealists.

when 2 people get together. there's no perfect match or perfect relationship.
but the trick is to seek perfection out of what is imperfect. sounds profound? i think not.
there'll be a never ending list of what we are unhappy with about our loved ones.
they range from moral values, attitudes towards others, behavior, daily life habits etc etc...
thus, the word here is Compromise.
many qualities can be ignored with grace, many qualities can be corrected, many qualities should be appreciated. every judgement we pass on others is an actual reflection on ourselves.

i don't know what's with Joshua lately.
he's been picking on me for the slightest reason. being all stern and harsh on me.
he felt that i should behave more like someone's who's attached, and make known that i'm attached. i should mellow down in my ways. i should not assume that Benny knows that i'm still attached to him. i should not befriend people with an objective in mind etc etc.

he is starting to remind me of Edmund. the insatiable dissatisfaction with me.
they alwiz have something to say, something unhappy about etc.
look, even my parents don't do that. so shut the fuck up!

if it's so hard to live with me. then don't. i don't give a damn about obliging myself or changing myself for that matter just to suit someone else's whims and fancies. get a life!
i'm happy as a was when i was single. so don't make me change my mind about a relationship.
yes, i am stubborn and wilful. i don't heed advices. i do whatever pleases me.
that's me. i have the guts to do what i want, and bear its consequences.
people who keep blaming others, pick on others or get picked on for no logical reasons lack the survival instinct of fighting back, or chasing an desire to achieve something.

love is not just love. love is not just a feeling or attachment towards someone.
it comprises of living. living with that person, for the good or the bad.
we can lose feelings and attractions for the person due to unhappiness stemming from daily living.
and all these while, i thought that the fundamentals of a relationship is built on making the other person happy and being happy ourselves?

posted by Veen @ 13:20